this door opens and there’s the bull blowing hot air in my face.

i know where you come from.

all i can do is trace the wires back.

STRIPEDY.

when they say it’s silly…what else can you be? paralyz-ed. i’m taking it ALL forfuckinggranted.

DARKNESS.beatbeatbeat SOMETHIN’. everything is different with an audience. please god, one day let it be loud enough. i will do any thing. IM svenska!

my days are passed counting the flow of echoes.

i don’t care who sees or knows nose. if you won’t, i don’t know who will remember me when i was young.

i look in the mirror and think “who the fuck is this person?!” i do not recognize my own tweakings.

there is no thing more frightening than beauty.

those boys in love with all beautiful things.

*GROAN.*

everyone wants to be a housewife.
lighting is important. ambience- la la la la…
the ego gets you there, it’s other factories that MAKE it. know this.

oh oh oh oh!

“them was simpler times” you hear them all say.

i was very young when electronic music stole my heart. i know i’ll never get it back. i wouldn’t accept it, to be honest.

WE’LL WAIT.

what the empath said
his words writ on vellum
the terrified boy, my beautiful son.

we speak easy
these thoughts mean no thing
to nary sought home, to fortitude beguiling.

it is wild, it is MADNESS
it is calm, it is clear
in the half hours, when he is not near.

i can’t sleep.

I RAN IN TO THE FOREST
I GOT LOST
I GOT LOST

I JUMPED IN TO THE OCEAN
I DROWNED
I DROWNED

I FELL IN TO THE ABYSS
I TRANSFORMED
I TRANSFORMED

why near balance-
it’s all around you.

the whole picture
of every single shard.

i want all your money-
i won’t accept a penny.

i watch everything you do-
i am never looking at you.

building up up up UP
to fall fall fall fall.

leery of those masks.

carrington burned everything after lytton died.

i don’t want to be friends
i will burn your house down.

some people are mind prone. others heart prone. i CONSCIOUSLY DECIDED (so i tell myself….) to listen to my blood and bones. they are of few words- thus, it is notsohard to move onward. toward the forward. future. those ‘f’ words. hello, sisters.

I LOVE YOU!

writers pour it out. speak. do you deny the tingling in your fingertips? traitor. cowherd. goatherd. and, YES.

pomegranate jelly. giraffe. miniature rose garden funeral of sores. st. vitus dance. annie. curls. heart.continuance. nuANCE. speak! to me! breathe full! ah!

the dog days are over
the dog days are gone.
the horses are coming-
so, you’d better run.

….as a matter of fact…..

scream. bleed.
kiss kiss, mein lieblings. i love you well.

fuck ophelia. fuck phryne.

into circles
music sound
again
again
i’ll show you this
because anything can be a drug.

no regard
meter, measure, moment
for working memory
to a dress up on the wall
with prosetry
and petals
toward wings against round wire.

bruised all ways
now and then and when
too.
SUSPISION poison dripping
from no vessel born any thing of me
then seeping…..

the beats are too LOUSY with speed
to motion
i cannot
will not
calm them.

‘do you believe wonderful things are waiting in the shadows to start happening?’
‘i would believe what you believe if you’d only stop believing in me.’
‘if it’s such a miracle then
i’m starting over again’

I AM THE GOD IN YOUR UNIVERSE.