happiness

India Fest. i came away with many paisley-hand-dyed kurtis. happiness. bindis, again.
solitude. growth. yaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyysssss.......*gasp*
i won't fall off track. everything is too balanced.
forget bitterness. let go.
red red red red red red red. all is red.
i want to see Wendy and Lucy- http://www.wendyandlucy.com/n_trailer.html
i spilled perrier (w/orange syrup added....) on the keyboard. i then drowned it in nail polish remover and facial astringent. voila.
i am fucking MAGIC. know this.
i went for a walk this morning. was not so satisfying. there is no way to bypass having to drive to the forest. ah, well. there you are.

kiss kiss and all my loves.

(brains are masochistic. they want you to use them).

but i know it's only lust

i am dissecting Heartbeats.
i am studying naked singularity.
i am dancing to Candy Castle.
i am putting it out there.
i am breathing this air.
my insides are fucked up. that's ok. for now.
move on move move move move onnnnnnn.
no more artisans. good-fucking-bye. au revoir.
i feel what i want. i can't know it, thank you.
love.

let's take off our masks
and be so natural
let's behold ourselves
and break this evil spell

sister, i'm a poet

i don't need to be doing this now. no way. move on.
I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. THAT IS WHY I AM HERE.
no need to point out my failure to find words.
Cut Copy was fantastic.
i will never go back. you come here. VISIT ME.
Chapel Hill is fantastic. have i mentioned this before? enough?
i have never felt so free. i am good to me. this is what love is. this is self.
tomorrow (today)- alone at Umstead. hiking between hairy trees.
you should be so lucky.
people do not own each other. you do not belong to me. nor i to you.
i dreamt of Steven. after all this time.....
i have been thinking about Jon.
Maynard is becoming the loveliest cat. we cuddle often.

love love

touch my
garden.
rain clouds
mountain.
sunshine all day long

you give me this love

fucking tear you apart

beware the ides.

tomorrow (today)- date with self. at the movies.
you do not have permission to believe without reason.
this is important.
i crave an atheist community. where is this? research.
i made granola. i made vegan lime pie. i made eggplant parmesan. i made a fabulous salad.
http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Franciszek_%C5%BBmurko
i need me. why? because i love me.
leaps and bounds. grow.

sigh.

let's all hug and hold each other and not be afraid. WHY BE AFRAID?
LIFE IS TO LIVE. let's paint our faces and run through the flowers and lay in the grass.
i'll sing to the moon and dance and skip and SING.
let's do this now. WHY WAIT?
be content in this. you in all. all in you. love love LOVE.
love.

mine is a razor blade

SIGH. this is madness. it's so.....natural to me. organic. it's so good to feel this way.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oxytocin  sometimes it's chemicals. sometimes it's everything.

what do i want? what am i doing? check check.

i want to be a nurse?!

i saw Morrissey under the full moon. oh jesus.

you can say you love me aloud, full breath, spoken. please.

there is a feeling in me
and i don't know why
is there a feeling in you
that you can't deny?

animal imagination

this weather is fantastic. the drive back from D.C. was seven hours in falling snow, last sunday. today it is 80 degrees. breezy, light, beach weather. the moon is full wednesday. i see Morrissey alone then.

last night i met a cat named spartacus with a metal hip. ball and socket joint. metal. his limp was incredible. house cat. he and the ferret don't seem to like each other thus far....

first friday was loveliness. ended up in a bar that was playing Low and parts of Pleasure Principle. UH-MAZE-ING. drink drink drink drink drink. bathroom within a bathroom....interesting?? i have tickets for Peaches in june. again, AMAZING. jesus.

i am CRAVING MORE. independence. being in the presence of poor energy is not healthy or bright. growing, encouraging energy is the only proper one. forget everything else. unimportant. little significance.

i am falling off track. that's ok. movement, yes. stagnancy, no. fucking dance. dance. dance with me.

if it keeps on rainin', levee's goin' to break

overlooking details

this chameleon only needs a mirror. gimme your colors. secondary, even. magic. it is so good to feel that i've grown. to see the flowers around. loveliness.

i am restless. not temperamental. butterfly house....let's live in a bio dome. this is accomplishment. i am BUILDING.

pluck, pull, prune, weed, and water me.

love love

i can't stand the separation

chameleon colors. bright white light. 'i can't be near you....the light just radiates.' remedy. channel channel channel channel...pose and feed into. paint paint paint paint colors and light. energy. energy. ENERGY. let's go. let's go. LET US GO. it is good to miss. it is good to long. those pangs. life is mine. all mine.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minarchism
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ne1GwkFmylY

i can't keep still. let's run to the hills. sing a lullaby. row down the river. dance for the moon. play. this is the best art. this is creativity. this is ENERGY. this is love. this is art.

hits every spot. i want to be your caryatid.

sex is keeping us together

i've been watching too much 'hot girls making out and touching eachother'. really, now.
i want to dominate him. i don't know WHY.
i've got even more control. this is all very excellent....
i am relaxed. i am relaxing. this is relaxation.
i want to be told. time for bed.

(it's not going to last forever)